The First Appearance (aka Coming out!)

well, in simple and "straight" words, I'm simply gay!
As a girl who grew up and lives in Cairo, it's not that "simple" to just spit off that last sentence, neither in person nor behind a screen. But I've had it, at a certain point you have to face yourself before you can even THINK of facing the others. So here I am, giving myself a window to the world, discrete and coward as this window may seem, it's the best I can do for now.
I guess the most prominant question that keeps banging the sides of my head is: how do you really know you're gay? I've never been with a man nor a girl for that matter .. but do you really have to be with one in order to know? The answer is a loud and clear no, as it rings in my head. For all i know, i've always find myself attracted to women ever since my early schooldays. Sometimes I even blame that very same school for my gayness - if I may consider it a condition! - because it was a catholic all-girls school where you can only see boys as they pass infront of you on our way to and from home - usually in scrambled outfits and with much bunching and loud teen throaty voices trying to sound manly and cool!
My first love subject was, obviously, a school mate. I was so madly in love with her and had no problem showing this affection, innocent as it was and childish as everyone looked at it. I've heard once that all children are homosexuals to a certain extent in their early years, due to their mono-sexed communities (girls always play with girls, boys always kick each others' arses) but somehow they'd naturally snap out of it as they grow up. I never did. In college, I fell in love several times, with many girls. Yet it was always innocent, platonic and non phsyical. Of course I enjoyed the hands holding and pecks on cheeks and all that stuff (Arab countries are a heaven for lesbians, since every possible physical interaction apart from french-kisses and intercourse is highly tolerated between same sexes) but it never got any further than that. It never did up till this moment. Which re-enforces the question again: How do you know you're a lesbian if you never had any actual "mutual" relationship with a girl before? Well I just know. I know because I never feel attracted to ANY guy, be him the world's most handsome man by all human measurements, while I find myself physically attracted to a lot of women, to the extent that sometimes I find myself making a mental casual comment about how hot a passing by chick is in much the same manner as male friends would!
Why I choose the nickname Cameo? Cameo is a special appearance in a movie, much the same way as my appearance in this life, and on this place of the world. I'm nothing but a special appearance, I don't have a main role in this life, not as a homosexual at least, but at least I acknowledge the fact that I'm special.
First comes the acknoweldgement .. hopefully liberation is to follow.